Rough Night

...Well its been a couple days since I last posted on here. Actually I had a small traumatic episode the night before last, which I am still recovering from. Having Diabetes can be pretty scary at times, especially when your blood sugar drops to low. Which is what happened to me. I can usually catch my lows and treat them with juice before they drop too low, but sometimes I have to give myself a glucogon shot. The other night I dropped to about 29, very scary. The norm is between 80 and 130, so this was really low. Praise God though, I did not lose consciousness. (sometimes you can go into a coma) Instead I actually had the presence of mind to come downstairs and get help. After a long night I think I am back on track now, just tired.

...In the whole nine years of having Diabetes I have only passed out one time. What a testament to Gods goodness! Still, when something like this happens it does shake me up a bit. I have to remember to trust God and remember He is in control of all things. And this is where Diabetes is a blessing, it keeps me close to my Savior-trusting Him. It also gives me the opportunity to bless God even when suffering or in pain.

...Here is a Psalm that really helps me to trust. Psalm 61, especially verses 1-2. " Hear my cry, O God; Attend to my prayer. From the end of the earth I will cry to You, When my heart is overwhelmed; Lead me to the rock that is higher than I. For You have been a shelter for me, A strong tower from the enemy. I will abide in Your tabernacle forever; I will trust in the shelter of Your wings. Selah For You, O God, have heard my vows; You have given me the heritage of those who fear Your name. You will prolong the king’s life, His years as many generations. He shall abide before God forever. Oh, prepare mercy and truth, which may preserve him! So I will sing praise to Your name forever, That I may daily perform my vows".

...When my heart is overwhelmed, lead me to a rock that is higher than I. What a beautiful prayer, its saying we do not have it in ourselves to save. God does, Christ is our rock and strong tower. I also look at this verse in another way, I should stop focusing inward on myself and instead focus up and out. Focus on bringing God glory in every situation and pour myself out in love for others because of His love for me. His ways are higher than mine, I cannot comprehend them. But I know His ways are perfect and He is accomplishing all of His purposes in me.

...These are just a few of the things I have learned through having Diabetes. And I would not give up these precious lessons in faith, trust and hope. And this in itself is a testimony of Gods work in my heart, that I can embrace this trial He has brought with joy-bittersweet though it sometimes may be. It is my prayer that all those suffering with physical ailments/disability's as well as those dealing with loss may see a glorious opportunity to bless God. In this we are privileged to be able to show the world the power of Christ at work in our lives!